What a Strange Place

I am in this place. An uncertain place. A place of waiting. A place that is very unfamiliar to me. I don't recognize the scenery. So I am just here in this place. I am waiting and praising all the while anticipating that Hope will reveal itself very soon.
I know something is just around the corner. I am struggling with what that might be.I am struggling with waiting for it to come to me, and for me not to chase it. To chase it, or see it before it's time is not "walking by faith"

I am struggling with my jelousy of close friends with new little ones. I struggle with every pregnant woman or baby I encounter. I am struggling with the ugliness and sadness that this envy brings.

I am simply in this place of struggle. I am struggling with my humanness. I am struggling with my sin nature.

But I do not doubt God is here. I do not doubt He has a plan in all of this. Believing in God is the one thing I seem to not be struggling with. So I tell myself let's start there and begin to trust a God in whom I can.







This One Place
By: Sara Groves

I was about to give up and that's no lie
cardinal landed outside my window
threw his head back and sang a song
so beautiful it made me cry

took me back to a childhood tree
full of birds and dreams

from this one place I can't see very far
in this one moment I'm square in the dark
these are the things I will trust in my heart
you can see something else
something else

I don't know what's making me so afraid
tiny cloud over my head
heavy and grey with a hint of dread
I don't like to feel this way

take me back to a window seat
with clouds beneath my feet

from this one place I can't see very far
in this one moment I'm square in the dark
these are the things I will trust in my heart
you can see something else
something else