In Sunday's sermon it was said.." There is a big difference between something being hard to understand, and something being hidden from you"
This spoke loudly to me, and I immediately thought about Nathan. It may be hard to understand, but God's peace and grace and love, have not been hidden from me.
Yesterday Nathan would have been 18 months old, and I thought about those words and for the first time a weight was lifted and I was not sad. In fact I was not sad all day long. I thought about Nathan all day of course, but it was peaceful, and I had a grateful heart. Thank you Holy Spirit. Even though I don't understand..God never hides his blessings from me.
His blessings are not always what i anticipate. His blessings are often what I need instead. A grateful heart. A life of contentment. Peace beyond understanding. These things hold the most value to me. And while I miss my boy, the ache was filled with peace. Sweet sweet peace.
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